in response to the questions that Mr. Hamon asked on my last post (which you need to read for this one to make sense) i discovered that i did need to share my opinion, for what would be the point in posting that article.
The artist claims her messages it the relaitonship between body and art. umm THAT IS NOT ART! im sorry but in no way is documenting a miscarriage, forced or not, art. A miscarriage is a very emotional thing whether it is forced or not. I think anyone pro- life or pro-choice is appaled by this. This girl is destroying an emotion, a happening to a womans body. I cant believe our school supported this project and put it on display. She gives art a very negative connotation. she destroyed her body, a sacred vessel, she used a donor's sperm in a very wrong way, and hurt her self and those who heard about or saw the exibit. she has no regard for human rights or human emotion. she took advantage of something very sacred- creating life and then destrying it.. all for what? art? that is sick, disgusting, horrible. She says "I think that I'm creating a project that lives up to the standard of what art is supposed to be." Maybe i have been disillusioned about what art is. So here is the definition from Dictionary.com
Art–noun
1.the quality, production, expression, or realm, according to aesthetic principles, of what is beautiful, appealing, or of more than ordinary significance.
2.the class of objects subject to aesthetic criteria; works of art collectively, as paintings, sculptures, or drawings: a museum of art; an art collection.
3.a field, genre, or category of art: Dance is an art.
4.the fine arts collectively, often excluding architecture: art and architecture.
5.any field using the skills or techniques of art: advertising art; industrial art.
6.(in printed matter) illustrative or decorative material: Is there any art with the copy for this story?
7.the principles or methods governing any craft or branch of learning: the art of baking; the art of selling.
8.the craft or trade using these principles or methods.
9.skill in conducting any human activity: a master at the art of conversation.
10.a branch of learning or university study, esp. one of the fine arts or the humanities, as music, philosophy, or literature.
11.arts,
a.(used with a singular verb) the humanities: a college of arts and sciences.
b.(used with a plural verb) liberal arts.
12.skilled workmanship, execution, or agency, as distinguished from nature.
13.trickery; cunning: glib and devious art.
14.studied action; artificiality in behavior.
15.an artifice or artful device: the innumerable arts and wiles of politics.
16.Archaic. science, learning, or scholarship.
The first definition- something that is asthetically pleasing.. WATCHING a girl have a miscarriage is not asthetically pleasing. SEEING the blood from unborn children is not asthetically pleasing.
i could go on, but i feel as though i am repeating myself. you get the idea. this girl is sick, twisted, and needs some help. her project is not art, it is only destroying a very emotional, and private part of a woman's life and experience. And our school supported her.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
two in one day.. i know but serisouly..
this is the most disgusting thing i have ever heard in my entire life:
For senior, abortion a medium for art, political discourseMartine PowersStaff ReporterPublished Thursday, April 17, 2008Art major Aliza Shvarts '08 wants to make a statement.Beginning next Tuesday, Shvarts will be displaying her senior art project, a documentation of a nine-month process during which she artificially inseminated herself "as often as possible" while periodically taking abortifacient drugs to induce miscarriages. Her exhibition will feature video recordings of these forced miscarriages as well as preserved collections of the blood from the process.The goal in creating the art exhibition, Shvarts said, was to spark conversation and debate on the relationship between art and the human body. But her project has already provoked more than just debate, inciting, for instance, outcry at a forum for fellow senior art majors held last week. And when told about Shvarts' project, students on both ends of the abortion debate have expressed shock . saying the project does everything from violate moral code to trivialize abortion.But Shvarts insists her concept was not designed for "shock value.""I hope it inspires some sort of discourse," Shvarts said. "Sure, some people will be upset with the message and will not agree with it, but it's not the intention of the piece to scandalize anyone."The "fabricators," or donors, of the sperm were not paid for their services, but Shvarts required them to periodically take tests for sexually transmitted diseases. She said she was not concerned about any medical effects the forced miscarriages may have had on her body. The abortifacient drugs she took were legal and herbal, she said, and she did not feel the need to consult a doctor about her repeated miscarriages.Shvarts declined to specify the number of sperm donors she used, as well as the number of times she inseminated herself.Art major Juan Castillo '08 said that although he was intrigued by the creativity and beauty of her senior project, not everyone was as thrilled as he was by the concept and the means by which she attained the result."I really loved the idea of this project, but a lot other people didn't," Castillo said. "I think that most people were very resistant to thinking about what the project was really about. [The senior-art-project forum] stopped being a conversation on the work itself."Although Shvarts said she does not remember the class being quite as hostile as Castillo described, she said she believes it is the nature of her piece to "provoke inquiry.""I believe strongly that art should be a medium for politics and ideologies, not just a commodity," Shvarts said. "I think that I'm creating a project that lives up to the standard of what art is supposed to be."The display of Schvarts' project will feature a large cube suspended from the ceiling of a room in the gallery of Green Hall. Schvarts will wrap hundreds of feet of plastic sheeting around this cube; lined between layers of the sheeting will be the blood from Schvarts' self-induced miscarriages mixed with Vaseline in order to prevent the blood from drying and to extend the blood throughout the plastic sheeting.Schvarts will then project recorded videos onto the four sides of the cube. These videos, captured on a VHS camcorder, will show her experiencing miscarriages in her bathrooom tub, she said. Similar videos will be projected onto the walls of the room.School of Art lecturer Pia Lindman, Schvarts' senior-project advisor, could not be reached for comment Wednesday night.Few people outside of Yale's undergraduate art department have heard about Shvarts' exhibition. Members of two campus abortion-activist groups . Choose Life at Yale, a pro-life group, and the Reproductive Rights Action League of Yale, a pro-choice group . said they were not previously aware of Schvarts' project.Alice Buttrick '10, an officer of RALY, said the group was in no way involved with the art exhibition and had no official opinion on the matter.Sara Rahman '09 said, in her opinion, Shvarts is abusing her constitutional right to do what she chooses with her body."[Shvarts' exhibit] turns what is a serious decision for women into an absurdism," Rahman said. "It discounts the gravity of the situation that is abortion."CLAY member Jonathan Serrato '09 said he does not think CLAY has an official response to Schvarts' exhibition. But personally, Serrato said he found the concept of the senior art project "surprising" and unethical."I feel that she's manipulating life for the benefit of her art, and I definitely don't support it," Serrato said. "I think it's morally wrong."Shvarts emphasized that she is not ashamed of her exhibition, and she has become increasingly comfortable discussing her miscarriage experiences with her peers."It was a private and personal endeavor, but also a transparent one for the most part," Shvarts said. "This isn't something I've been hiding."The official reception for the Undergraduate Senior Art Show will be from 6 p.m. to 8 p.m. on April 25. The exhibition will be on public display from April 22 to May 1. The art exhibition is set to premiere alongside the projects of other art seniors this Tuesday, April 22 at the gallery of Holcombe T. Green Jr. Hall on Chapel Street.
For senior, abortion a medium for art, political discourseMartine PowersStaff ReporterPublished Thursday, April 17, 2008Art major Aliza Shvarts '08 wants to make a statement.Beginning next Tuesday, Shvarts will be displaying her senior art project, a documentation of a nine-month process during which she artificially inseminated herself "as often as possible" while periodically taking abortifacient drugs to induce miscarriages. Her exhibition will feature video recordings of these forced miscarriages as well as preserved collections of the blood from the process.The goal in creating the art exhibition, Shvarts said, was to spark conversation and debate on the relationship between art and the human body. But her project has already provoked more than just debate, inciting, for instance, outcry at a forum for fellow senior art majors held last week. And when told about Shvarts' project, students on both ends of the abortion debate have expressed shock . saying the project does everything from violate moral code to trivialize abortion.But Shvarts insists her concept was not designed for "shock value.""I hope it inspires some sort of discourse," Shvarts said. "Sure, some people will be upset with the message and will not agree with it, but it's not the intention of the piece to scandalize anyone."The "fabricators," or donors, of the sperm were not paid for their services, but Shvarts required them to periodically take tests for sexually transmitted diseases. She said she was not concerned about any medical effects the forced miscarriages may have had on her body. The abortifacient drugs she took were legal and herbal, she said, and she did not feel the need to consult a doctor about her repeated miscarriages.Shvarts declined to specify the number of sperm donors she used, as well as the number of times she inseminated herself.Art major Juan Castillo '08 said that although he was intrigued by the creativity and beauty of her senior project, not everyone was as thrilled as he was by the concept and the means by which she attained the result."I really loved the idea of this project, but a lot other people didn't," Castillo said. "I think that most people were very resistant to thinking about what the project was really about. [The senior-art-project forum] stopped being a conversation on the work itself."Although Shvarts said she does not remember the class being quite as hostile as Castillo described, she said she believes it is the nature of her piece to "provoke inquiry.""I believe strongly that art should be a medium for politics and ideologies, not just a commodity," Shvarts said. "I think that I'm creating a project that lives up to the standard of what art is supposed to be."The display of Schvarts' project will feature a large cube suspended from the ceiling of a room in the gallery of Green Hall. Schvarts will wrap hundreds of feet of plastic sheeting around this cube; lined between layers of the sheeting will be the blood from Schvarts' self-induced miscarriages mixed with Vaseline in order to prevent the blood from drying and to extend the blood throughout the plastic sheeting.Schvarts will then project recorded videos onto the four sides of the cube. These videos, captured on a VHS camcorder, will show her experiencing miscarriages in her bathrooom tub, she said. Similar videos will be projected onto the walls of the room.School of Art lecturer Pia Lindman, Schvarts' senior-project advisor, could not be reached for comment Wednesday night.Few people outside of Yale's undergraduate art department have heard about Shvarts' exhibition. Members of two campus abortion-activist groups . Choose Life at Yale, a pro-life group, and the Reproductive Rights Action League of Yale, a pro-choice group . said they were not previously aware of Schvarts' project.Alice Buttrick '10, an officer of RALY, said the group was in no way involved with the art exhibition and had no official opinion on the matter.Sara Rahman '09 said, in her opinion, Shvarts is abusing her constitutional right to do what she chooses with her body."[Shvarts' exhibit] turns what is a serious decision for women into an absurdism," Rahman said. "It discounts the gravity of the situation that is abortion."CLAY member Jonathan Serrato '09 said he does not think CLAY has an official response to Schvarts' exhibition. But personally, Serrato said he found the concept of the senior art project "surprising" and unethical."I feel that she's manipulating life for the benefit of her art, and I definitely don't support it," Serrato said. "I think it's morally wrong."Shvarts emphasized that she is not ashamed of her exhibition, and she has become increasingly comfortable discussing her miscarriage experiences with her peers."It was a private and personal endeavor, but also a transparent one for the most part," Shvarts said. "This isn't something I've been hiding."The official reception for the Undergraduate Senior Art Show will be from 6 p.m. to 8 p.m. on April 25. The exhibition will be on public display from April 22 to May 1. The art exhibition is set to premiere alongside the projects of other art seniors this Tuesday, April 22 at the gallery of Holcombe T. Green Jr. Hall on Chapel Street.
two weeks.. WHATT
Wow. I am amazed at how fast this semester when by, or the year for that matter. At some points i thought it would NEVER end. but just two weeks and then it is summer! i am so excited. i am unfortunately leaving GCSU, but dont worry i'll be back! this summer is going to bring a lot of change, good times, and growing up. i am just excited to get some time to relax! these past few weeks (and i am sure the next two will be as well) have been KILLER. It is kind of scary to think that i will be a sophomore in college, and for some reason that makes me feel INDREDIBLY old. i should feel young though i am a mere 19 and i have so much of my life to live. I do not really have a lot to share with you.. my brain is mush- i am running on VERY VERY little sleep. but i did watch a video this morning that was really awesome and i hope you enjoy and learn somethng from it as well. so .. here ya go! :D have a great weeK!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Love is everywhere
So recently i have been thinking, feeling, seeing, knowing a lot about love. Love for my friends and new sisters. Love for my boyfriend. Love for my God. I have been listening to songs, i have seen some movies, looked at videos online. Love is indeed everywhere you go. My new favorite quote, which is now my facebook status, is "It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love." and that is SO TURE. so i have decided to share a video or two and some songs for you to look up, and i hope you do, because you are loved. we are loved. everyone is loved by someone. and it is such a great feeling :D
Song list
* Sean McConnell- Madly In Love With You
*Jason Mraz- I'm Yours.
* The Derek McTavish Band- Song of Ascents
*Pete Townshend- Let My Love Open The Door
*Goo Goo Dolls- Let Love In
*Led Zeppelin- Thank You
so i decided to just give you the link to the site of the people who made this video because they have some others that are really good. i hope you enjoy, feel enlightened, and of course LOVED!http://www.youtube.com/user/jesusmademyshoes
Song list
* Sean McConnell- Madly In Love With You
*Jason Mraz- I'm Yours.
* The Derek McTavish Band- Song of Ascents
*Pete Townshend- Let My Love Open The Door
*Goo Goo Dolls- Let Love In
*Led Zeppelin- Thank You
so i decided to just give you the link to the site of the people who made this video because they have some others that are really good. i hope you enjoy, feel enlightened, and of course LOVED!http://www.youtube.com/user/jesusmademyshoes
Monday, March 17, 2008
just an original something..
It would be cool if ya'll would let me know what you think
thanks :D
Looking for love in all the wrong places,
She is searching, wanting, longing,
To feel whole again-
To not hurt anymore.
Sex, drugs, and alcohol-
Livin life in the fast lane
Always wondering; always regretting:
This broken heart never heals.
She does not know this,
But she is loved- by the greatest lover of all:
He will make her complete- whole again
Never having to wonder if someone cares.
If only she would fall into his arms,
Then this search would stop-
And these destructive ways would
Be no more.
He loves her like nothing else
Like no one else could: He will
Fill her heart full of love and peace-
And all the wrong places would not matter anymore.
thanks :D
Looking for love in all the wrong places,
She is searching, wanting, longing,
To feel whole again-
To not hurt anymore.
Sex, drugs, and alcohol-
Livin life in the fast lane
Always wondering; always regretting:
This broken heart never heals.
She does not know this,
But she is loved- by the greatest lover of all:
He will make her complete- whole again
Never having to wonder if someone cares.
If only she would fall into his arms,
Then this search would stop-
And these destructive ways would
Be no more.
He loves her like nothing else
Like no one else could: He will
Fill her heart full of love and peace-
And all the wrong places would not matter anymore.
Monday, March 3, 2008
this may seem long.. but its worth a look i promise
So recently i have been kinda in a rut.. i dont want to go to classes or do my work.. and it has proven a very bad rut because i am now VERY behind in most of my classes. But sometimes it is hard to do something that i absolutely do not like (aka school) espically when i do not know where it is going to take me or why exaclty i am here. i do appreciated the varied education i am getting and like most of my classes, its just the extra umph i am lacking. well as i was praying this morning a verse to a song called "we are broken" popped into my head, and it goes like this
RULES TO LIVE BY:
1. don't conform to society. it makes everything seem bland.
2. be outrageous. outgoing. extraordinary.
2.5. NEVER give up your self-respect, and NEVER change to conform to a small and idiotic portion of society. WHY WOULD YOU EVER WANT TO BE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE?
3. take advice.
4. form your own opinions.
5. trust is important. influential. and not always necessary.
6.always say what you mean, and mean what you say.
7. twisting reality never gets you anywhere.
8. sex doesn't get you anywhere.
9. obtain a high self esteem.
10. find your signature face
11. don't forget who you are and what you want to accomplish.
12. dream and be successful.
13. school should be your life. school is what decides whether or not you will work in mcdonalds or own a large house. with that said, do well in school.
14. live your life on the edge, it's the only one you'll get.
15. there is no other world, so treat this one well.
16. believe in karma.
17. don't weigh yourself too often or look in the mirror every other hour.
18. have self confidence.
19. learn to speak up.
20. voice your opinions and don't follow the crowd.
21. being popular and having loads of friends isn't always the best thing in life.
22. family. full stop. treat it well. be nice. helpful. don't argue.
23. cut your toenails.
24. read a billion books.
25. memorize a song and sing at the top of your lungs.
26. laugh for 15 minutes everyday.
27. don't worry.
28. sometimes dress to impress.
29. sometimes dress for yourself.
30. mismatch.
31. buy bright coloured shoes. and wear them.
32. write a poem.
33. travel the world.
34. take pictures. not of yourself.
35.everyone can see you, but make them register who you are.
36. recognition.
37.accomplishment.
38. use crest white strips. they work :]
39. blow bubbles.
40. dance in the rain.
41. write a love letter.
42. keep a diary.
43. help a person in need.
44. find the cure for cancer.
45. sit on the floor of a movie theater and make spitballs in straws.
46. look at the clouds.
47. draw a tree, a flower, a bird.
48. run until your heart bursts.
49. give to charity.
50. light your hand on fire.
50.5 "when there's nothing left to burn you have to set yourself on fire" - stars
51. keep a secret.
52. make a scrapbook.
53. become a parent
54. buy organic foods. and eat sushi. detoxify.
55. laugh at yourself.
56. go a day without makeup. maybe two if you feel dangerous.
57. tell the truth.
57.5 dont give in to social pressures. that in itself is not cool. not cool at all
58. give out random presents. and hugs.
59. buy a SUPPPER fattening dougnuts in a supermarket.
60. try out for the dance team. chorus. or drama.
61. play football.
62. plant a tree. be enviromentally friendly.
63. sleep on the beach.
63.5. make loads of money and give it all to charity
64. camp in the woods.
65. listen to the birds. or the freeway.
66. try a rollercoaster.
67. understand the opposite sex
68. relax. enjoy. sleep. dream.
69. live. love. cry and die.
Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole
i can relate to this alot. sometimes i feel like college has broken my spirits, beaten me down, and left me there broken and wounded. innocence is an idea of the past, and being sheltered is no longer an option most of the time.
it seems like we all have this idea that we can only accept an A or a B and anything less is a disgrace. if you do not go to college you are a failure. if you follow your heart and become something that doesnt make a lot of money- thats almost frowned upon. college is a time for peopel to find them selves, but it is also a time when people lose themselves in what they thing is the right way. sometimes never having fun, or having the wrong kind of fun. always studying, trying to get ahead. i almost wish i was 4 or 5 again where the only thing that matters was Thomas the Tank Engine and coloring. now its all about how am i going to make money, how am i going to support myself, how am i going to stay on top of things- HOW AM I GOING TO LIVE?!
well i'll tell you i am sick of worrying about where i am going to be next year, next month, even tomorrow. all we have is right now. how can we prepare for a future if we arent even certain we will get one? watching that video on Mr. H's blog really made me think. i want to have an impact on people's lives like that Hungarian dude. i actually wish i could have known him- he seemed really humble, sweet, and wise. we all have a "Hungarian," a mentor, someone who says something that is just woah and it makes you think, or change your ways.
well here is something from one of my hungarians. she is a 17 year old mother of a 3 year old toddler- you do the math. yet she is the most amazing girl i have ever met, so wise and strong- and she has such a positive out look on her hard life. she just has this look on life thats like i dont care what people think because what only matters is that i am happy, my son is provided for and God is always there- He makes it happen. it is truely amazing.. well anways i took the list below from her myspace.. these are "rules to live by" that she wrote.. and i thought they were pretty good. well enjoy!
RULES TO LIVE BY:
1. don't conform to society. it makes everything seem bland.
2. be outrageous. outgoing. extraordinary.
2.5. NEVER give up your self-respect, and NEVER change to conform to a small and idiotic portion of society. WHY WOULD YOU EVER WANT TO BE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE?
3. take advice.
4. form your own opinions.
5. trust is important. influential. and not always necessary.
6.always say what you mean, and mean what you say.
7. twisting reality never gets you anywhere.
8. sex doesn't get you anywhere.
9. obtain a high self esteem.
10. find your signature face
11. don't forget who you are and what you want to accomplish.
12. dream and be successful.
13. school should be your life. school is what decides whether or not you will work in mcdonalds or own a large house. with that said, do well in school.
14. live your life on the edge, it's the only one you'll get.
15. there is no other world, so treat this one well.
16. believe in karma.
17. don't weigh yourself too often or look in the mirror every other hour.
18. have self confidence.
19. learn to speak up.
20. voice your opinions and don't follow the crowd.
21. being popular and having loads of friends isn't always the best thing in life.
22. family. full stop. treat it well. be nice. helpful. don't argue.
23. cut your toenails.
24. read a billion books.
25. memorize a song and sing at the top of your lungs.
26. laugh for 15 minutes everyday.
27. don't worry.
28. sometimes dress to impress.
29. sometimes dress for yourself.
30. mismatch.
31. buy bright coloured shoes. and wear them.
32. write a poem.
33. travel the world.
34. take pictures. not of yourself.
35.everyone can see you, but make them register who you are.
36. recognition.
37.accomplishment.
38. use crest white strips. they work :]
39. blow bubbles.
40. dance in the rain.
41. write a love letter.
42. keep a diary.
43. help a person in need.
44. find the cure for cancer.
45. sit on the floor of a movie theater and make spitballs in straws.
46. look at the clouds.
47. draw a tree, a flower, a bird.
48. run until your heart bursts.
49. give to charity.
50. light your hand on fire.
50.5 "when there's nothing left to burn you have to set yourself on fire" - stars
51. keep a secret.
52. make a scrapbook.
53. become a parent
54. buy organic foods. and eat sushi. detoxify.
55. laugh at yourself.
56. go a day without makeup. maybe two if you feel dangerous.
57. tell the truth.
57.5 dont give in to social pressures. that in itself is not cool. not cool at all
58. give out random presents. and hugs.
59. buy a SUPPPER fattening dougnuts in a supermarket.
60. try out for the dance team. chorus. or drama.
61. play football.
62. plant a tree. be enviromentally friendly.
63. sleep on the beach.
63.5. make loads of money and give it all to charity
64. camp in the woods.
65. listen to the birds. or the freeway.
66. try a rollercoaster.
67. understand the opposite sex
68. relax. enjoy. sleep. dream.
69. live. love. cry and die.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
a thought thats been on my mind
I have realiezed recently that well I do not really know how to put words to it.... but I guess this has become a pet peve of mine:
Our school is pretty small... so the chances of seeing someone you have had a class with or are in a class with around are pretty good. It kills me when I see someone, and I know they see and recognize me, yet they turn their head while I look straight at them and give them a friendly smile. I am not really sure why people do this. Whats the harm in a friendly head nod... aknowledging that someone exists. Maybe I just put too much thought into things. You know the saying "you never know the kind of day someone is having so smile, and you'll receive one in return" or something like that... You remember the old BMW comercials.. where one person would see a BMW bug and smile, and someoen else would see them smile and smile and someone different and each time someone's day would get brighter.. why can't our campus be like that? Or is this too much of a friendly, hippie, lovey thing to say. You never know who you are nice to or mean to. You never know who is watching. So why not pass on a friendly smile or head nod the next time you see someone you kind of recognize or know? and see how your day turns out... possibly a lot happier.. with all the smiles and hellos you get. Just a thought. "Pay it forward"
Our school is pretty small... so the chances of seeing someone you have had a class with or are in a class with around are pretty good. It kills me when I see someone, and I know they see and recognize me, yet they turn their head while I look straight at them and give them a friendly smile. I am not really sure why people do this. Whats the harm in a friendly head nod... aknowledging that someone exists. Maybe I just put too much thought into things. You know the saying "you never know the kind of day someone is having so smile, and you'll receive one in return" or something like that... You remember the old BMW comercials.. where one person would see a BMW bug and smile, and someoen else would see them smile and smile and someone different and each time someone's day would get brighter.. why can't our campus be like that? Or is this too much of a friendly, hippie, lovey thing to say. You never know who you are nice to or mean to. You never know who is watching. So why not pass on a friendly smile or head nod the next time you see someone you kind of recognize or know? and see how your day turns out... possibly a lot happier.. with all the smiles and hellos you get. Just a thought. "Pay it forward"
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Communicating brings upon intimacy
HouseKeeping: okay so first i would like to apologize for not keeping up with this thing- but we can all relate to the fact that college keeps us extremely busy. I will try harder to keep up with this blog in the future. Second of all i would like to thank those who read and espically those who comented on my first blog- i was really surprised at the responces i got- they were all very good and everyone had great points. I only hope that i can keep sparking your thought process and maybe get intouch with your emotions as well.
This week i am going to take a short cut and post my newest Facebook Note, but I want to go into more detail about communicating first... ill try to keep it short i promise.
This past weekend i went on a Women's Retreat with the UGA Wesley. It was the most amazing thing i have experienced in a while. The speaker talked with us about the importance of having an intimate relationship with God and knowing him. It was really moving to learn that God truely cares and loves us. Knowing God takes a lot of dicipline, but it is not that hard once you make it a habit to spend time with him. It is safe to say that God really opened my eyes and heart this weekend. And i hope that you will get to experience his intensity and amazing grace soon. here is my Note- be kind please.
Background: I went on a women’s retreat with the UGA Wesley.
Words to describe this weekend: Amazing, Inspiring, Captivating, Rescuing, and Loving. I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I reached a turning point in my life and it feels so good. I spent so much of the weekend feeling vulnerable and crying- I was so week and full of pain that I could not open my heart up. After I talked with Cindy (who is the most amazing woman I have ever met EVER) I started to feel better. I verbally confessed to the Lord my wrong doing and that felt so good. It felt like I knew he really heard me. That night at worship we sang a song called “Rescue me” and I felt that song so strongly- and sang each verse with my whole heart. “I called out to you, and you rescued me, I wanna be with you” right after we sang this song. A girl went up to the front and told us about a vision the Lord had sent her. Her vision was a girl lying naked in a bed trying so hard to reach for this dirty grimy cloth that was just so gross, and covering herself with it. Then she said that whoever you are God wants you to give him your sin, and stop holding on to it because he is going to take care of you. This broke me in so many ways. It made me feel so good. My heart rose for the bottom and became whole again. God had answered my prayers instantly. Later on after worship we had a one on one prayer session and I talked with another amazing woman. She prayed over me about things, and I could just feel my body becoming warm and whole again. She told me that God was showing her an image of a flower and saying that he sees me as a beautiful flower and a wonderful fragrance, that God wants to be my gardener and caretaker- he wants to nurse me back to health.
If you do not know me very well these words may not seem as meaningful to you. But they are my life. They are my redemption. They are what makes me feel so happy, so light, so FREE. God forgives, God loves, God makes whole what wasn’t holy before. The eyes of my heart are turned to Jesus for good. I no longer wish to stray. I want to make right what is wrong. I am healed, healing, and a healer. I know that God has so much in store for me and I am so excited to find out what it is. I feel like I am climbing out of my hole, I am coming out to feel the warmth, and love, and safety that God has to offer. I sacrifice my life to him.
God here is my heart and my whole heart. I will obey your wishes. I want to spread your word and your love. Let your light shine through me even brighter than before. I no longer want to submit myself to the enemy. I want to walk in your ways. Lord give me the strength I need. Thank you for my life, thank you for being in my life, thank you for showing me my life again. You are truly amazing.
-- Okay I'd like to explain a little more... For the longest time i did not communicate with God, I did not trust him- Do not get me wrong i still went to church, i read the bible, i talked with people about my faith but i did not even believe myself half the time. I learned this weekend that communication is key not only with your relationship with God but in any relationship. If we do not communicate then things are not said that need to be said, feelings are not claimed, and hearts are not mended. Communication is key to everything in society.
This week i am going to take a short cut and post my newest Facebook Note, but I want to go into more detail about communicating first... ill try to keep it short i promise.
This past weekend i went on a Women's Retreat with the UGA Wesley. It was the most amazing thing i have experienced in a while. The speaker talked with us about the importance of having an intimate relationship with God and knowing him. It was really moving to learn that God truely cares and loves us. Knowing God takes a lot of dicipline, but it is not that hard once you make it a habit to spend time with him. It is safe to say that God really opened my eyes and heart this weekend. And i hope that you will get to experience his intensity and amazing grace soon. here is my Note- be kind please.
Background: I went on a women’s retreat with the UGA Wesley.
Words to describe this weekend: Amazing, Inspiring, Captivating, Rescuing, and Loving. I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I reached a turning point in my life and it feels so good. I spent so much of the weekend feeling vulnerable and crying- I was so week and full of pain that I could not open my heart up. After I talked with Cindy (who is the most amazing woman I have ever met EVER) I started to feel better. I verbally confessed to the Lord my wrong doing and that felt so good. It felt like I knew he really heard me. That night at worship we sang a song called “Rescue me” and I felt that song so strongly- and sang each verse with my whole heart. “I called out to you, and you rescued me, I wanna be with you” right after we sang this song. A girl went up to the front and told us about a vision the Lord had sent her. Her vision was a girl lying naked in a bed trying so hard to reach for this dirty grimy cloth that was just so gross, and covering herself with it. Then she said that whoever you are God wants you to give him your sin, and stop holding on to it because he is going to take care of you. This broke me in so many ways. It made me feel so good. My heart rose for the bottom and became whole again. God had answered my prayers instantly. Later on after worship we had a one on one prayer session and I talked with another amazing woman. She prayed over me about things, and I could just feel my body becoming warm and whole again. She told me that God was showing her an image of a flower and saying that he sees me as a beautiful flower and a wonderful fragrance, that God wants to be my gardener and caretaker- he wants to nurse me back to health.
If you do not know me very well these words may not seem as meaningful to you. But they are my life. They are my redemption. They are what makes me feel so happy, so light, so FREE. God forgives, God loves, God makes whole what wasn’t holy before. The eyes of my heart are turned to Jesus for good. I no longer wish to stray. I want to make right what is wrong. I am healed, healing, and a healer. I know that God has so much in store for me and I am so excited to find out what it is. I feel like I am climbing out of my hole, I am coming out to feel the warmth, and love, and safety that God has to offer. I sacrifice my life to him.
God here is my heart and my whole heart. I will obey your wishes. I want to spread your word and your love. Let your light shine through me even brighter than before. I no longer want to submit myself to the enemy. I want to walk in your ways. Lord give me the strength I need. Thank you for my life, thank you for being in my life, thank you for showing me my life again. You are truly amazing.
-- Okay I'd like to explain a little more... For the longest time i did not communicate with God, I did not trust him- Do not get me wrong i still went to church, i read the bible, i talked with people about my faith but i did not even believe myself half the time. I learned this weekend that communication is key not only with your relationship with God but in any relationship. If we do not communicate then things are not said that need to be said, feelings are not claimed, and hearts are not mended. Communication is key to everything in society.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
First things First
Okay so first of all the title of my blog came from a song by Lupe Fiasco but I cannot at this moment remember which one it was, nor do I want to look it up and tell you, so i will in a later post. You will just have to trust me that it is a good song, and an album worth listening to.
I am going to apologize ahead of time- I am a terrible speller, I tend to have a lot of typos, and I don't always capitalize my "i"s, or the first letter of a sentence, or use good grammer. which is slightly ironic because i am considering a major in English literature.
So our conversation last night really kind of stuck with me. Secrecy. What if everything and everyone was really transparent? I knew everything about you and you knew everything about me? how intense would that be? What if you could know everything about someone- their bathroom habits, how and what and where they eat, their deodorant, toothpaste, shampoo they use, or how often they wash their sheets. You could know if they use drug, or have a drinking problem, how they treat their spouse, or spend their money. Personally i do not really care to know everything about everyone, nor do i think i would have the time to care. Honestly i do not really want everyone else knowing everything about me. someone said in my group "everyone does something bad" and that is true- no one is perfect. But if people's secrets were exposed then would everyone strive to be a better person- to avoid being judged or becoming an outcast. if every one's guilty pleasures were exposed to the world would they be guilty pleasures anymore?I think secrets are important to keep boundaries, lives personal, thoughts private.
On Tuesday night i went to Campus Outreach and the guy there talked about how we live in a "postmodern" world- meaning that the common thought is "whats right for you may not be right for me, so don't tell me what is right." So basically everyone can just do what they want because it is right for them. He compared this to a book in the bible called Judges- in judges the people's king died and all order was lost people murdered people, stole things, raped women and children, and any other bad thing you can think of. All this is because people just did what they wanted-- sounds kind of familiar right. People had secrets, and walls- no order, no conception of right and wrong. I found this really interesting people do what they want and have no real conception of what the absolute truth is yet they claim to be Christian, Buddhist, Jewish, or Muslim- all of which i am assume (i cant really speak for any religion except Christianity) that all have some sort of standards to live by, how to treat other people, to be a good person- yet there are few people in the world who truly humble themselves and follow these standards to the best of their abilities. People are still selfish, killers, rapers, manipulators, substance abusers- all because they say "this is right for me, and whats right for you may be different- so don't tell me what to do." I guess what i am trying to get at is if people just lived the way they want to then there is no true right or wrong, and they will continue to do wrong- most of which will be in secret. Therefore, if every one's secrets were exposed then would people lead better lives, would the problems of the world be solved?
I am going to apologize ahead of time- I am a terrible speller, I tend to have a lot of typos, and I don't always capitalize my "i"s, or the first letter of a sentence, or use good grammer. which is slightly ironic because i am considering a major in English literature.
So our conversation last night really kind of stuck with me. Secrecy. What if everything and everyone was really transparent? I knew everything about you and you knew everything about me? how intense would that be? What if you could know everything about someone- their bathroom habits, how and what and where they eat, their deodorant, toothpaste, shampoo they use, or how often they wash their sheets. You could know if they use drug, or have a drinking problem, how they treat their spouse, or spend their money. Personally i do not really care to know everything about everyone, nor do i think i would have the time to care. Honestly i do not really want everyone else knowing everything about me. someone said in my group "everyone does something bad" and that is true- no one is perfect. But if people's secrets were exposed then would everyone strive to be a better person- to avoid being judged or becoming an outcast. if every one's guilty pleasures were exposed to the world would they be guilty pleasures anymore?I think secrets are important to keep boundaries, lives personal, thoughts private.
On Tuesday night i went to Campus Outreach and the guy there talked about how we live in a "postmodern" world- meaning that the common thought is "whats right for you may not be right for me, so don't tell me what is right." So basically everyone can just do what they want because it is right for them. He compared this to a book in the bible called Judges- in judges the people's king died and all order was lost people murdered people, stole things, raped women and children, and any other bad thing you can think of. All this is because people just did what they wanted-- sounds kind of familiar right. People had secrets, and walls- no order, no conception of right and wrong. I found this really interesting people do what they want and have no real conception of what the absolute truth is yet they claim to be Christian, Buddhist, Jewish, or Muslim- all of which i am assume (i cant really speak for any religion except Christianity) that all have some sort of standards to live by, how to treat other people, to be a good person- yet there are few people in the world who truly humble themselves and follow these standards to the best of their abilities. People are still selfish, killers, rapers, manipulators, substance abusers- all because they say "this is right for me, and whats right for you may be different- so don't tell me what to do." I guess what i am trying to get at is if people just lived the way they want to then there is no true right or wrong, and they will continue to do wrong- most of which will be in secret. Therefore, if every one's secrets were exposed then would people lead better lives, would the problems of the world be solved?
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