I have realiezed recently that well I do not really know how to put words to it.... but I guess this has become a pet peve of mine:
Our school is pretty small... so the chances of seeing someone you have had a class with or are in a class with around are pretty good. It kills me when I see someone, and I know they see and recognize me, yet they turn their head while I look straight at them and give them a friendly smile. I am not really sure why people do this. Whats the harm in a friendly head nod... aknowledging that someone exists. Maybe I just put too much thought into things. You know the saying "you never know the kind of day someone is having so smile, and you'll receive one in return" or something like that... You remember the old BMW comercials.. where one person would see a BMW bug and smile, and someoen else would see them smile and smile and someone different and each time someone's day would get brighter.. why can't our campus be like that? Or is this too much of a friendly, hippie, lovey thing to say. You never know who you are nice to or mean to. You never know who is watching. So why not pass on a friendly smile or head nod the next time you see someone you kind of recognize or know? and see how your day turns out... possibly a lot happier.. with all the smiles and hellos you get. Just a thought. "Pay it forward"
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Communicating brings upon intimacy
HouseKeeping: okay so first i would like to apologize for not keeping up with this thing- but we can all relate to the fact that college keeps us extremely busy. I will try harder to keep up with this blog in the future. Second of all i would like to thank those who read and espically those who comented on my first blog- i was really surprised at the responces i got- they were all very good and everyone had great points. I only hope that i can keep sparking your thought process and maybe get intouch with your emotions as well.
This week i am going to take a short cut and post my newest Facebook Note, but I want to go into more detail about communicating first... ill try to keep it short i promise.
This past weekend i went on a Women's Retreat with the UGA Wesley. It was the most amazing thing i have experienced in a while. The speaker talked with us about the importance of having an intimate relationship with God and knowing him. It was really moving to learn that God truely cares and loves us. Knowing God takes a lot of dicipline, but it is not that hard once you make it a habit to spend time with him. It is safe to say that God really opened my eyes and heart this weekend. And i hope that you will get to experience his intensity and amazing grace soon. here is my Note- be kind please.
Background: I went on a women’s retreat with the UGA Wesley.
Words to describe this weekend: Amazing, Inspiring, Captivating, Rescuing, and Loving. I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I reached a turning point in my life and it feels so good. I spent so much of the weekend feeling vulnerable and crying- I was so week and full of pain that I could not open my heart up. After I talked with Cindy (who is the most amazing woman I have ever met EVER) I started to feel better. I verbally confessed to the Lord my wrong doing and that felt so good. It felt like I knew he really heard me. That night at worship we sang a song called “Rescue me” and I felt that song so strongly- and sang each verse with my whole heart. “I called out to you, and you rescued me, I wanna be with you” right after we sang this song. A girl went up to the front and told us about a vision the Lord had sent her. Her vision was a girl lying naked in a bed trying so hard to reach for this dirty grimy cloth that was just so gross, and covering herself with it. Then she said that whoever you are God wants you to give him your sin, and stop holding on to it because he is going to take care of you. This broke me in so many ways. It made me feel so good. My heart rose for the bottom and became whole again. God had answered my prayers instantly. Later on after worship we had a one on one prayer session and I talked with another amazing woman. She prayed over me about things, and I could just feel my body becoming warm and whole again. She told me that God was showing her an image of a flower and saying that he sees me as a beautiful flower and a wonderful fragrance, that God wants to be my gardener and caretaker- he wants to nurse me back to health.
If you do not know me very well these words may not seem as meaningful to you. But they are my life. They are my redemption. They are what makes me feel so happy, so light, so FREE. God forgives, God loves, God makes whole what wasn’t holy before. The eyes of my heart are turned to Jesus for good. I no longer wish to stray. I want to make right what is wrong. I am healed, healing, and a healer. I know that God has so much in store for me and I am so excited to find out what it is. I feel like I am climbing out of my hole, I am coming out to feel the warmth, and love, and safety that God has to offer. I sacrifice my life to him.
God here is my heart and my whole heart. I will obey your wishes. I want to spread your word and your love. Let your light shine through me even brighter than before. I no longer want to submit myself to the enemy. I want to walk in your ways. Lord give me the strength I need. Thank you for my life, thank you for being in my life, thank you for showing me my life again. You are truly amazing.
-- Okay I'd like to explain a little more... For the longest time i did not communicate with God, I did not trust him- Do not get me wrong i still went to church, i read the bible, i talked with people about my faith but i did not even believe myself half the time. I learned this weekend that communication is key not only with your relationship with God but in any relationship. If we do not communicate then things are not said that need to be said, feelings are not claimed, and hearts are not mended. Communication is key to everything in society.
This week i am going to take a short cut and post my newest Facebook Note, but I want to go into more detail about communicating first... ill try to keep it short i promise.
This past weekend i went on a Women's Retreat with the UGA Wesley. It was the most amazing thing i have experienced in a while. The speaker talked with us about the importance of having an intimate relationship with God and knowing him. It was really moving to learn that God truely cares and loves us. Knowing God takes a lot of dicipline, but it is not that hard once you make it a habit to spend time with him. It is safe to say that God really opened my eyes and heart this weekend. And i hope that you will get to experience his intensity and amazing grace soon. here is my Note- be kind please.
Background: I went on a women’s retreat with the UGA Wesley.
Words to describe this weekend: Amazing, Inspiring, Captivating, Rescuing, and Loving. I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I reached a turning point in my life and it feels so good. I spent so much of the weekend feeling vulnerable and crying- I was so week and full of pain that I could not open my heart up. After I talked with Cindy (who is the most amazing woman I have ever met EVER) I started to feel better. I verbally confessed to the Lord my wrong doing and that felt so good. It felt like I knew he really heard me. That night at worship we sang a song called “Rescue me” and I felt that song so strongly- and sang each verse with my whole heart. “I called out to you, and you rescued me, I wanna be with you” right after we sang this song. A girl went up to the front and told us about a vision the Lord had sent her. Her vision was a girl lying naked in a bed trying so hard to reach for this dirty grimy cloth that was just so gross, and covering herself with it. Then she said that whoever you are God wants you to give him your sin, and stop holding on to it because he is going to take care of you. This broke me in so many ways. It made me feel so good. My heart rose for the bottom and became whole again. God had answered my prayers instantly. Later on after worship we had a one on one prayer session and I talked with another amazing woman. She prayed over me about things, and I could just feel my body becoming warm and whole again. She told me that God was showing her an image of a flower and saying that he sees me as a beautiful flower and a wonderful fragrance, that God wants to be my gardener and caretaker- he wants to nurse me back to health.
If you do not know me very well these words may not seem as meaningful to you. But they are my life. They are my redemption. They are what makes me feel so happy, so light, so FREE. God forgives, God loves, God makes whole what wasn’t holy before. The eyes of my heart are turned to Jesus for good. I no longer wish to stray. I want to make right what is wrong. I am healed, healing, and a healer. I know that God has so much in store for me and I am so excited to find out what it is. I feel like I am climbing out of my hole, I am coming out to feel the warmth, and love, and safety that God has to offer. I sacrifice my life to him.
God here is my heart and my whole heart. I will obey your wishes. I want to spread your word and your love. Let your light shine through me even brighter than before. I no longer want to submit myself to the enemy. I want to walk in your ways. Lord give me the strength I need. Thank you for my life, thank you for being in my life, thank you for showing me my life again. You are truly amazing.
-- Okay I'd like to explain a little more... For the longest time i did not communicate with God, I did not trust him- Do not get me wrong i still went to church, i read the bible, i talked with people about my faith but i did not even believe myself half the time. I learned this weekend that communication is key not only with your relationship with God but in any relationship. If we do not communicate then things are not said that need to be said, feelings are not claimed, and hearts are not mended. Communication is key to everything in society.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
First things First
Okay so first of all the title of my blog came from a song by Lupe Fiasco but I cannot at this moment remember which one it was, nor do I want to look it up and tell you, so i will in a later post. You will just have to trust me that it is a good song, and an album worth listening to.
I am going to apologize ahead of time- I am a terrible speller, I tend to have a lot of typos, and I don't always capitalize my "i"s, or the first letter of a sentence, or use good grammer. which is slightly ironic because i am considering a major in English literature.
So our conversation last night really kind of stuck with me. Secrecy. What if everything and everyone was really transparent? I knew everything about you and you knew everything about me? how intense would that be? What if you could know everything about someone- their bathroom habits, how and what and where they eat, their deodorant, toothpaste, shampoo they use, or how often they wash their sheets. You could know if they use drug, or have a drinking problem, how they treat their spouse, or spend their money. Personally i do not really care to know everything about everyone, nor do i think i would have the time to care. Honestly i do not really want everyone else knowing everything about me. someone said in my group "everyone does something bad" and that is true- no one is perfect. But if people's secrets were exposed then would everyone strive to be a better person- to avoid being judged or becoming an outcast. if every one's guilty pleasures were exposed to the world would they be guilty pleasures anymore?I think secrets are important to keep boundaries, lives personal, thoughts private.
On Tuesday night i went to Campus Outreach and the guy there talked about how we live in a "postmodern" world- meaning that the common thought is "whats right for you may not be right for me, so don't tell me what is right." So basically everyone can just do what they want because it is right for them. He compared this to a book in the bible called Judges- in judges the people's king died and all order was lost people murdered people, stole things, raped women and children, and any other bad thing you can think of. All this is because people just did what they wanted-- sounds kind of familiar right. People had secrets, and walls- no order, no conception of right and wrong. I found this really interesting people do what they want and have no real conception of what the absolute truth is yet they claim to be Christian, Buddhist, Jewish, or Muslim- all of which i am assume (i cant really speak for any religion except Christianity) that all have some sort of standards to live by, how to treat other people, to be a good person- yet there are few people in the world who truly humble themselves and follow these standards to the best of their abilities. People are still selfish, killers, rapers, manipulators, substance abusers- all because they say "this is right for me, and whats right for you may be different- so don't tell me what to do." I guess what i am trying to get at is if people just lived the way they want to then there is no true right or wrong, and they will continue to do wrong- most of which will be in secret. Therefore, if every one's secrets were exposed then would people lead better lives, would the problems of the world be solved?
I am going to apologize ahead of time- I am a terrible speller, I tend to have a lot of typos, and I don't always capitalize my "i"s, or the first letter of a sentence, or use good grammer. which is slightly ironic because i am considering a major in English literature.
So our conversation last night really kind of stuck with me. Secrecy. What if everything and everyone was really transparent? I knew everything about you and you knew everything about me? how intense would that be? What if you could know everything about someone- their bathroom habits, how and what and where they eat, their deodorant, toothpaste, shampoo they use, or how often they wash their sheets. You could know if they use drug, or have a drinking problem, how they treat their spouse, or spend their money. Personally i do not really care to know everything about everyone, nor do i think i would have the time to care. Honestly i do not really want everyone else knowing everything about me. someone said in my group "everyone does something bad" and that is true- no one is perfect. But if people's secrets were exposed then would everyone strive to be a better person- to avoid being judged or becoming an outcast. if every one's guilty pleasures were exposed to the world would they be guilty pleasures anymore?I think secrets are important to keep boundaries, lives personal, thoughts private.
On Tuesday night i went to Campus Outreach and the guy there talked about how we live in a "postmodern" world- meaning that the common thought is "whats right for you may not be right for me, so don't tell me what is right." So basically everyone can just do what they want because it is right for them. He compared this to a book in the bible called Judges- in judges the people's king died and all order was lost people murdered people, stole things, raped women and children, and any other bad thing you can think of. All this is because people just did what they wanted-- sounds kind of familiar right. People had secrets, and walls- no order, no conception of right and wrong. I found this really interesting people do what they want and have no real conception of what the absolute truth is yet they claim to be Christian, Buddhist, Jewish, or Muslim- all of which i am assume (i cant really speak for any religion except Christianity) that all have some sort of standards to live by, how to treat other people, to be a good person- yet there are few people in the world who truly humble themselves and follow these standards to the best of their abilities. People are still selfish, killers, rapers, manipulators, substance abusers- all because they say "this is right for me, and whats right for you may be different- so don't tell me what to do." I guess what i am trying to get at is if people just lived the way they want to then there is no true right or wrong, and they will continue to do wrong- most of which will be in secret. Therefore, if every one's secrets were exposed then would people lead better lives, would the problems of the world be solved?
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